I don’t have time to muck around….
I’ve said that phrase “I don’t have time to muck around….” to quite a few people in the past years. It’s been an interesting and at times disturbing way to see how people have responded to my “Why”.
Replacing the infiltration of negativity and discrimination in life, always with my children in the forefront of my mind……I hoped they would go forward with a free mind rather than a small-minded one.
So I greet every day by ‘bringing my best self’ forward, Be that smiling at people I don’t know, complimenting the most insignificant happenings, and trying NOT to pay attention to everyday negativity., so I can be in my most natural state.
How would I define my natural state?
“LIGHT ENDURANCE”
Light - meaning the light and love I radiate from my heart without any expectation of it being returned or that I need to be questioned about why I feel that way I do. A generosity of spirit.
Endurance - meaning the ongoing perseverance through negativity in whatever form it shows up. And it can come out of nowhere.
Because if I live with “Light Endurance” it allows me to nurture myself. Self-care in adversity so I’m able to live with the past which IS my lived experience. Not perceived, not made up, not forgotten but the reality of my life.
What’s it like to go forward as I reclaim my life? To go about my days knowing the assumptions made about me, it’s too late - I already heard them, read the paperwork, already saw the sideways glances and eye rolls. I’ve already moved on from places and spaces I’m not welcome. Like this Blog is called, I don’t have time to muck around…..
What’s it like to reclaim my spirit every day?
RECLAIM
Every day reclaim
Involves an awareness
Of when one’s pieces of stardust
Melted away
And the message of
Not worthy
Not wanted
Not good enough
Not visible
Was the way forward
In every situation
Add to that somebody else’s script
Of what I need stepping out to belong
When every cell of shame
Is telling me to be invisible
Because it’s too uncomfortable
To be a witness to
What it’s like to everyday reclaim.
Visiting schools in my community recently talking to students about poetry - one student summed it up very well “Poetry can say so much in so few words”. An excellent answer!
EVERYDAY RECLAIM - Sue